Really. I am so overwhelmed right now.
I've never thought about what my wedding day would be like. Ever. Maybe it's because my parents didn't have a wedding? It was never a big thing. No wedding photos around the house or any of that. Heck, I can't even remember my mom ever wearing her wedding ring, or my parents' anniversary date. I think it was in May? Anyway, I can count on one hand how many weddings I've attended. It's just never been something I've thought about. Of course I've always wanted to be married, I just never thought about the actual ceremony and stuff.
A few weeks before C proposed, we'd talked about the whole wedding thing (for the five millionth time). I assured him that I still didn't want a big to-do as far as a wedding was concerned and he was on board. There are a few factors that make a small wedding/elopement make sense for us-
Our moms are both deceased. That takes a lot of fun out of it.
And we have to save whatever money we can for kids. We have to pay to have kids. IVF isn't cheap y'all. And we don't want a house full, we'd be happy with just one.
But of course, I feel like I'm missing out on something if we just go to the courthouse and do it that way. I hate that feeling and he doesn't want me to feel that way either. But spending a lot of money that we don't have (and asking our dad's to help out is basically out of the question) is irresponsible.
I have been doing a bit of research (I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START!) on a small ceremony and reception but I can't even think of a number for a budget, much less pin down a specific date! The only two dates that have any meaning for us are January 15 (the day we started dating), and November 17 (the day he proposed). I am a date girl. It has to mean something to me.
The last time I checked, January 15, 2013 is just a little over a month away, and in the middle of the week. We could do that-if we wanted to be hasty about it.
November 17, 2013 is on a Sunday, which would work, but do I really want to go down that road of planning/spending money we shouldn't/stressing over a wedding?
People keep asking what we're doing and nearly a month after the engagement we still don't know!
I do know that I keep going back to this photo-
Thanks a lot Pinterest.
I love everything about this except for the cake.
I also like the idea of dark purple accents, and Persian buttercups, and a ceremony in the exact spot he proposed at, and wedding dress shopping (I know right? Who am I?).
Mostly I just want to be married.
Let me throw another curve ball-C has a short term goal of moving us to Cupertino, CA for his job. So that's all up in the air.
I just don't know.
Thoughts? Suggestions?
I'm all ears.