Happy Birthday Mom

I'm not gonna lie, today snuck up on me. I mean, I realized today was Halloween but it nearly slipped my mind that...

Today would have been my mom's 43rd birthday.

She never got to see 40, but that's okay because I can't imagine my mom as a middle aged woman anyway.

Halloween was one of her favorite holidays, I don't think it was just because it was also her birthday. I remember her decorating the house just as much for Halloween as she did for Christmas and even Easter.

When my brother came to visit this summer he brought me this picture of my mom and I-

I wish I had more recent pictures of my mom. I don't know why she's not in any pictures we have.

*All you moms get out from behind the camera and get in front of it now!*

It feels like just yesterday we were having lunch, just her and I, and talking about school and our future. In actuality that lunch took place two months before she passed away. When I recall some of the conversation that we had it's eerie because she talked about some things that actually happened after she passed. Like she knew she wouldn't be here, but she knew who would end up where/what the outcome would be. Like, she wanted me to know how things needed to be in case something happened.

It's hard to explain without details. But those details are mine. And hers. I don't want to share them yet.

So, today Chris and I are laying low and if we happen to catch The Rocky Horror Picture Show on TV then we'll watch it. She watched it every Halloween.

And just for good measure, because I know my brothers/family will read this, here's the last family picture together with my grandma before my parents divorced.

One of my favorite pictures!

Happy Birthday Mom! We LOVE you and we MISS you!