I'm THAT Girl

You know the one I'm talking about. The one who when you first meet, you think, 'Wow she seems like a bitch.' The quiet one who doesn't talk to you until you talk to her first. Again, because she's either stuck up, or...a bitch.

Throughout high school and even college I was told the same thing over and over, 'I thought you were a goodie goodie, or a mean person, or whatever.' 

Yeah I'm that girl. 

Except really? I'm not.

I'm the most passive aggressive person ever. So much so that I got called out at work the other day for it. I thought it was hilarious, but it always comes as such a surprise when the other person discovers the truth. 

I'm not really all that bad. I mean. Okay, if you give me a reason to not trust you, then we'll have problems, but I'm not stuck up or whatever like my first impression may give.

I hate confrontation. I do everything I can to avoid it. Always. And I'll hold all of my emotions in. For a while. Until finally? I blow up. And when that happens, it's not pretty. 

And it's been happening a lot lately. With family, C, work. Nearly everyone. I suck at life right now. Taking peoples' shit is not something I do gracefully. 

But I'm working on it. 

I'm trying not to let it get to that point. The point where I explode, which means dealing with the whole 'I don't do confrontation' thing. 

I'm working on it people. 

Bear with me.